Andros.isTeen = false;

[logomancer]

I am now twenty years old. A great deal has changed. I am no longer a teenager, for one. No more use for special words to describe my age, just xty-y until I get insanely old. It's a bit of a big step, that. And yet, despite this being the day of my birth, I am sad.

I feel alone. Lonely. Empty inside. For some reason, I am preoccupied with the fear of me at some future age having no life, of being Irrelevant and Insignificant, of having a shit job somewhere out in the middle of nowhere with no friends or companions for company. It's depressing. I am afraid of the future, for I think it might be happening to me.

I have few friends of mention at present. Few people pay me mind. When I try to do something for the rest of the group, I am shouted down and ridiculed until someone else steps up. I feel like the world has conspired against me, that I'm the butt of some cosmic joke. And I don't understand why.

I'm sorry if anything I said has hurt any of you. I've just had this sense and feeling growing inside of me for a while now, and I felt that I should let it out before it consumed me.

I just looked out my window, and it's stopped raining. I'm not sure whether that is good or bad.

Comments

[tadakimacun.livejournal.com]

And his data members are public. Tells you worlds about him, really.

[vt-andros.livejournal.com]

That was actually robertliguori, folks...Tada forgot to log out.

He could be a struct...

[anterus.livejournal.com]

Ooooooooor, this could be referenced by a friend class. See, Andrew? More proof you've got friends. Hehehe.

And you know we all give each other a hard time, 'cause it's fun and we all get a good laugh out of it. Clever humor exercises the mind, and that feels good. Join in!