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[logomancer]

It seems like when something finally goes right in the world for me, something always comes to negate that small little victory.

Positive: I have the internets back, thanks to Adelphia and their willingness to sell me a crippled Internet connection for more than DSL rates.

Negative: I got ousted as SOAP president, thanks mainly to nius deciding, on a whim, that SOAP needed new leadership. No clue why they needed new leadership, just that they do, and the rest of the group agreed with them. Thus, my plan to distinguish myself from everybody else by being President of 3 organizations at once has failed. I am at a loss for what I can do now to make up for it. I can't draw better than kittenchan or rainbowsaber or aburatsubodream. I can't write good fiction. I can't computer geek better than vond or nius or yubbie. So I look for a way to distinguish myself and possibly gain respect among the others in the one place nobody else seems to have staked a claim, and I get it taken away from me because of one man's opinion that someone new needs to do it for a change. I'm not sure what else to do now except toil away in obscurity.

Comments

[acid-rose.livejournal.com]

stop trying to be better than everyone and just.. be.

[vt-andros.livejournal.com]

I'm not trying to be better than anyone else. I just want to be special.

[vond.livejournal.com]

You missed the point. What makes you special is who you are, not what you do.

[zannyvix.livejournal.com]

You *are* special. You are uniquely you. Everyone has their own gifts and flaws. Rather than focusing on everyone else's abilities, concentrate on your own. What do *YOU* do well? What do you enjoy doing? Make your own distinguishing features, and stop worrying so much about everyone else. Any changes in your life are going to have to come from within. Rather than freaking out whenever you encounter an obsticle, regroup and move on. Life is a learning experience for all of us. You have to begin judging yourself by your *own* criteria rather than what you think people may think of you.

I spent most of my childhood and teenage years unable to relate to my peers because I was the weird kid, the freak no one wanted to be friends with. My dad died when I was in jr high, and just gave them another reason to ostracize me. And you know what? It sucked ass. I had no friends, I didn't get invited to parties, I had to eat lunch alone... and one day, I decided it just wasn't worth worrying about. *I* liked me. So what if no one else did. Taking that step kept me from becoming bitter about it. I don't give a damn what people think of me. If they like me and what I do, great; if not, they can fuck off. I began concentrating on what I enjoyed doing rather than what was popular. I learned how to draw, and I'm *still* learning things. What I've discovered in my own path is there will always be someone better than you, and things rarely go the way you've planned. Instead of worrying about it or having a pity party, put that energy into something constructive. If you can only see the negative in things, you will only EVER see negativity. Let it go. Grow up a little. Look for the positive no matter what the situation may be. Keep going the way you have, and you're liable to give yourself a coronary.

So relax, take a deep breath, do something you enjoy, and let it pass. Be special just because you are YOU. That's plenty.

[acid-rose.livejournal.com]

you are special and you don't need any status to be that way. you're a good friend, a kind man, and someone i consider very special to me. and that's all that should matter. special is a relative term.