Oh, Mother...

[logomancer]

Spiel game day today. Very interesting. Got no work done, and found out I forgot about two Linear Algebra quizzes. That'll hurt. Still didn't get to play Res Publica -- whoever has that bring it on Wednesday.

Came back to room to find shitogram from Mom. You see, she sent me an animated GIF of a cartoon guy pissing on France, It wasn't very amusing to me (given my stance on this) and I told her so, asking her not to send me any more of that kind of thing. She replied back that she was soooo sooorrry she sent it to me, and that I didn't have to get nasty with her. She was also saying that I didn't appreciate what she did for me, and that because of that she was giving me all that she would for the rest of the month. "You want more," she said, "EARN IT YOURSELF!!!"

As my brain spewed out a resounding "WTF???" I sent out a message reassuring her that I did appreciate her (but not the picture), and that I wasn't trying to be nasty with her. I place 5:1 odds that she'll get even more angry.

It seems like my actions and speech get misinterpreted a lot. I guess nobody knows me that well. I don't think my mother understands me that well either. I blame it on her parents. They were strait-laced, conservative nutbars, and made my mother that way too. I did not follow in the family tradition (not that they didn't try to make me that way -- gods know I'm still trying to deprogram myself). Thus, I am alien to them. This results in a certain unobvious looking-down upon me whenever there's a big family get-together. I've grown used to it. But I dread going home sometimes....

But it's not like I'm trying to be an asshole or something...I'm just not sure what's appropriate given certain social contexts. I've lived a sheltered life relative to my peers. So, when you think I'm acting strangely, it's not that I'm purposefully trying to be an idiot/asshole/dork/etc., but that I probably am unclear what is expected of me and that I'm just winging it. Apparently, my mother doesn't get that. She, like a vast majority of people, misinterprets what I say as something offensive. And I suffer for it.

That's it.

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[robertliguori.livejournal.com]

Dude. All of a sudden I'm glad the only thing my family does is attack me with tampons. My family may be as prone to sociopathic wierdness as I am, but at least we are fairly reasonable. Hmm. Have you tried talking (through IM or phone or something) to her about your feelings about the war? Mayhap if you establish that this is a sensitive issue for you, she will get where you are coming from better? Yeah, I have unreasonable faith in the power of reason. I find the twisted symmetry of it comforting.

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So, when you think I'm acting strangely, it's not that I'm purposefully trying to be an idiot/asshole/dork/etc., but that I probably am unclear what is expected of me and that I'm just winging it.
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Waitaminute. I always just assumed that 95% of human interaction was just that, with the remaining 5% consisting of people intentionally trying to be idiots/assholes/dorks/etceteras. Did I miss something?