logomancer | (no subject) (Reply)

So, the students are gone. And things really suck right now. One of my favorite restaurants is closing down due to the Economy (fuck you very much, Wall Street). Someone in town that I'm fond of is moving away to the middle of nowhere because she can't get a job here (see previous parenthetical remark). In Final Fantasy XI, trying to do anything with my Black Mage has proven to be an exercise in frustration and pain. On top of all this, my boss is being more insane than usual, Obama's channeling Gerald Ford, and there's nothing really to do in this town in the summer.

Needless to say, I am rather depressed and dreary at the moment. Somedays, I feel like part of my brain -- the good part -- wants to shut off, to isolate itself from the world because it can't take the pain any longer. Keeping it from doing so requires more and more effort these days. Just as worrisome is the effect this is having on my cognitive skills. I'm getting confused more easily, making more typos, and making more nonsensical statements in front of people. This is bad.

I hope things get better soon. Otherwise, I don't know if I'll endure this. Alas, with what's coming down the pike, I don't think that's in the cards.