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Andros.isTeen = false;
I am now twenty years old. A great deal has changed. I am no longer a teenager, for one. No more use for special words to describe my age, just xty-y until I get insanely old. It's a bit of a big step, that. And yet, despite this being the day of my birth, I am sad.
I feel alone. Lonely. Empty inside. For some reason, I am preoccupied with the fear of me at some future age having no life, of being Irrelevant and Insignificant, of having a shit job somewhere out in the middle of nowhere with no friends or companions for company. It's depressing. I am afraid of the future, for I think it might be happening to me.
I have few friends of mention at present. Few people pay me mind. When I try to do something for the rest of the group, I am shouted down and ridiculed until someone else steps up. I feel like the world has conspired against me, that I'm the butt of some cosmic joke. And I don't understand why.
I'm sorry if anything I said has hurt any of you. I've just had this sense and feeling growing inside of me for a while now, and I felt that I should let it out before it consumed me.
I just looked out my window, and it's stopped raining. I'm not sure whether that is good or bad.
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Would VTSFFC be interested in doing some kind of large group yard sale outside where the Capri used to be? I know in the summers they let people set up out there, and I think they let people do it for free.
You're more likely to talk to VTSFFC people than just about anyone else in Spiel; can you pass the question to the VTSFFC list or something please? Thanks.
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